Everything is always okay.

My whole shell was on tight. The shell was used for protection and not a person in this whole wide world would see past that shell. That was the plan at least. But in life, plans don't always go accordingly. The boy came from nowhere. He was out of the blue and picked away every part of the shell until there was nothing left to it. The pores surrounded the boy and the girl, all the little pieces shattered on the ground. He wanted to throw it away for good and put it in the past but she was skeptical. She wasn't sure about it just yet. She had women's intuition and it's a good thing she did. When he left, she was alone. The shell was in pieces, she was by herself, and she was afraid. She wondered day after day how she would ever get by without him. She walked aimlessly around with no feelings, just numbness. It began to take over her body. She began to be comfortable in this feeling. Her heart was safe again, hidden under the numbness and pain she felt inside. The new shell she wore was the one of vulnerability. She didn't know how to put the past in the past where it belonged. As all the pieces of the past began to fade away day by day, the days got easier and the pain lessened. By removing the pictures, the letters, and all the shiny things, she felt her burden ease up on her and felt the past where it should be. She began to realize she had taken a step she truly believed she would never be able to do. The impossible had been possible for her and this reality hit like a freight train. Although she could still feel the vulnerability around her, she pressed on with her life and continued moving forward with her progress. She knew better this time around than to be the broken girl who gets used. By being used, this meant she was weak. She was stronger this time and she knew that deep down. This was when the reality of her situation began to take a toll on her. The boy was a dependent person. He never showed that to anyone but her. She knew all along she wanted him around, but it never hit her that she truly didn't "need" him the way he needed her. And this is why he left. The idea of him needing the girl was so frightening because he had been afraid to be left. So instead, he took his fear and placed it into her life. This boy made the girl so afraid that she would never trust again. But as the little girl began to move on with the ghosts of her past, she realized she would still be okay. Everyday she is reminded of the boy but she's learned to look past it and find beauty in the past and the way it all had to happen. She is not sad about it anymore, but rather she smiles at the memories and hides the sadness away in her heart. She found that being alone and without him was actually okay with her. And this fact alone, proved she was stronger than she ever believed possible.