" My heart has become a piece of paper, easy to rip up & throw away"
I've let my feelings be controlled, & gotten to the point where I just can't deal with it anymore. Your feelings are yours. Do not ever let anyone else control how you feel. You shouldn't be pushed around & played with. Emotions are problems sometimes & you can't help how you feel. I don't think anyone can throw away someone else's love.
I don't believe I've ever been in love but I know how it feels to have your heart ripped out. I've been so down on the ground not knowing what to do anymore. Looking around at everyone else being happy, & knowing that you once had that, but it was ruined. I know what it's like to cry & cry until it feels like you don't have any tears left. I know what it's like to have to try to be friends with someone you want more than anything in this world. I know what it's like to not know what to do with yourself. All you want to do is cry, hate, and hurt the person that hurt you the way they did. I know what it's like to feel like the one person you care about most in this world doesn't & won't look at you the way you look at them ever again. I know what it's like to hate yourself because you don't think you're good enough. I know what it's like to want to run away from all your problems. But chances are, you're going to get caught up with. The person who hurt you, they'll never know what you felt. The person you're crazy about probably won't come back to you, and eventually you'll have to move on. It really hurts at first & then you'll get sick of feeling unwanted. You'll feel miserable all the time & eventually it will hit you that you don't always have to be like that. You'll see that you're choosing to be that way. It's going to be weird letting go & moving on at first, but sooner or later you'll feel better. The sooner, the better.
It's easier to hold on & hope for something good to come out of it. But, it won't happen. The good you once had is completely gone. You get sick of trying & the other person not doing anything. You'll get sick of chasing something that doesn't care enough about you to want you to catch them. It's a never-ending story & it will never change. Guys play games with your head & eventually you might find a good one, but deep down they're still that same guy who hurt you in the beginning. "Once a cheater, always a cheater. Once a liar, always a liar." The list goes on & on.
Hide your heart, & don't give it away. Pieces of your heart come and go, but you'll never get them back. Protect your heart & don't fall easily. Any guy who says he truly cares about you, test it. Push his limits & see how far he'll go to be with you. A guy in his right mind, will fight & fight to be with you. Personally, guys need to step it up. Guys should do anything they can to be with a girl they truly care about.
I say it's time to say goodbye. It's time to let go & move on. I tell myself this everyday. Life is too short to be hung up on one person. You have your whole life ahead of you & it's time to set yourself free from the chains you put on yourself. It's okay to be hurt. It's okay to cry. It's okay to move on. Obviously the other person has, and now it's your turn. Just take a step back, and realize that all the pain you're being put through isn't necessary. Nothing should hurt you as bad as you think. Everything should just go right if it's going to work out in the end.
" My heart was the only thing I was holding on to, and I've fallen."
It's hard admitting that you're heartbroken. When your heart breaks, don't deny it. Face the fact, embrace the pain, & it will go away. At first, the pain feels unbearable & you don't know what to do with yourself. Eventually, you'll realize that it wasn't worth it. Anyone who truly cares about you, will never put you in so much pain. Second chances are just a free pass to feel that pain again. Upon letting go, you'll feel like a weight has been lifted off your shoulders. That unbearable feeling in the pit of your stomach will be gone & you will be released. It's the most amazing feeling your heart can feel. You'll feel lost around the people you care about most for a little while but don't cut them out. Don't push the people who care most out of your life, all they want to do is help. It's great to let them help you. It's crazy to not. You need to surround yourself with the people who actually love you because the love you were looking for before in that other person, it's pointless. It was never there. You may have had it engraved in your head that one day it would work & you always took no as a yes. It was a no, he meant it & now you have to get over it. You'll find it in your heart to forgive him someday. He'll say he's sorry but don't believe it. He uses that as a pass to get back in your life &try to play with you again. To him, it's a game. He wants to see how long he can make you hang on, & as a girl, you'll just wait around because you believe him when he tells you he cares. If he told you he loved you, you'd melt. You'd feel the happiest you ever felt in your life but he wouldn't mean it. No guy can love you as much as he says he does. He's trying to make you feel better & as a guy, that's the only way he knows how.
Crying can usually help some of the pain come out. It's the unbearable pain you feel all over. Where you feel if you move, you'll fall because you're so weak. Goodbye is the perfect word to think of.
Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye.
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