LOVE KILLS.

Day by day a million questions run through my head. Why would be the key word. Why this, Why that. It hurts looking back at the answer the questions. Watching everything around you fall & crumble to pieces & knowing you can't do anything to fix it. The more difficult part is healing. Healing inside hurts but you have to do it. The walls around may start to cave in. You'll feel oxygen-less. You probably won't know what to do with yourself. It's life. Things get complicated but there are people along the way to help you. Things may eat you up inside but you & I both know you can survive the battle. Some people may tend to show how happy they seem to be on the outside but who knows. Maybe they really aren't happy but they are afraid to show how they feel. Love & hate are some scary emotions. Love is hard and it kills. It pulls you to your lowest point & some won't ever get over it. Love tears you to pieces sometimes. I would be so lost without everything I've been through. The stepping stones in life are sometimes sharp, others smooth. You have to go through some sharp paths to realize that the smooth path is the path to take. Everyone has a very sharp rocks in their smooth path & it may sting for a little bit, but the pain goes away. You have to take a deep breath, don't be afraid to step, & go for it.

This path is alot like love & relationships. The smooth path would be the beginning of the relationship where you both are extremely happy. You both think you know what you got yourselves into. The sharp rocks are the problems you tend to come across. Other girls, other guys. These problems often come up, but you have to know how to get through them. The deep breath is the resolving of the problems, the not being afraid the fear you feel inside yourself to trust the person again, and going for it is trying to trust the person again. Everyone goes through this.

Also, everyone goes through a sharp path where they have to move on. You're so broken inside and don't know what to do with yourself. But you have to find a new path, trust it, and try to love again. It's hard sometimes & you have to believe in yourself as much as you believe in the other person. The faith you have in yourself is the main thing you need. You have to believe you can love again. Don't be afraid to get hurt because you'll be running from your problems. You need to find someone different and someone who cares. Don't be afraid to trust this person. You need to believe in them because just because someone else hurt you, doesn't automatically mean the next person & the person after that are going to do the same thing. If you don't give the next person a chance or the benefit of the doubt, you'll never find love again. You'll feel that care you've been longing for. You need to believe in that person to show you the love & care you've been looking for. Gaining someone's trust is one of the hardest things in life but everyone does it and you either get let down or surprised with not getting let down. Life is a roller coaster. You've got to either hold or let go. The ride will be bumpy and no one gets out alive anyway.